I clicked the “Purchase” button and immediately went through a whirl of emotions. I started off being so excited, I could burst. Then my face grew warmer as the reality slowly started sinking in. I ended up on the floor, red faced, and panicked. “What have I done?!” Then a memory flashed in my mind of a beautiful day we spent in Ireland back in 2013. I was smiling again and full of joy. It has been a very long five minutes.